I don't have a good reason. For being uninvolved with my creative side, that is. I don't even know if I know why. I can't count how many times I started to sit down to write and then just stared hopelessly at the screen. The feeling of utter frustration takes over and I walk away.
When I originally started writing I had a specific purpose, to figure out why I don't remember much of my childhood. I wanted to know why, what happened in my life that lead me to believe that memories weren't important. The blog has turned into a lot more than that. It's been my place to vent, be funny, cry, spread happiness and more than anything, communicate. I wanted to write everyday. HAHAHA!!!! I wanted it to go a specific way and of course it didn't. I wanted.... to find serenity with the choas of my life.
I don't think I've done a very good job holding myself accountable. While I don't think that I set my expections too high, I do believe that I probably should have forced myself to write, even on the offest of days. If you know me, you know that my follow through sucks- BIG TIME. My entire life has been a series of things that I get so so so excited to start and then at whatever point, I just stop. Sometimes there's a reason, sometimes not. I know this about myself. I spent a good majority of my life being criticized by people for not following through.
So... here we are. Me in all of my "I Suck" glory saying... I'll do better. I have to do better.
When I originally started writing I had a specific purpose, to figure out why I don't remember much of my childhood. I wanted to know why, what happened in my life that lead me to believe that memories weren't important. The blog has turned into a lot more than that. It's been my place to vent, be funny, cry, spread happiness and more than anything, communicate. I wanted to write everyday. HAHAHA!!!! I wanted it to go a specific way and of course it didn't. I wanted.... to find serenity with the choas of my life.
I don't think I've done a very good job holding myself accountable. While I don't think that I set my expections too high, I do believe that I probably should have forced myself to write, even on the offest of days. If you know me, you know that my follow through sucks- BIG TIME. My entire life has been a series of things that I get so so so excited to start and then at whatever point, I just stop. Sometimes there's a reason, sometimes not. I know this about myself. I spent a good majority of my life being criticized by people for not following through.
So... here we are. Me in all of my "I Suck" glory saying... I'll do better. I have to do better.