5 am... Usually I'd be frustrated but, coffee was already made thanks to the roomie, the pup is under the covers laying across my feet keeping them warm and best of all, it's quiet.
It's that time of year where I start reflecting on the last year. What decisions I made, what I did and didn't do, who was effected, etc. I have to say... I'm happy.
L's Journey was... well, if I'm being truthful, a way of dredging up the past. Recently, I've been less involved with it than other projects because everytime I thought of something, I would immediately think that I didn't want to put myself through it. Everyone knows the sayings- the quotes are all over the internet, you can't move forward if you're still living in the past. And... I was. It's time to move on. It's time to accept that my life has been the way its been for a reason. I accept the people in my life for who they are- not what they've done. I accept that everyone has a past- so do I. I accept the dynamics of my family- even though its hard. I accept the job I have- not everyone is lucky enough to be employed. I accept Me. I'm not perfect but I've had some pretty perfect moments.
It's taken me a loooonnnnnnnggggg time to get to this place. Contentment. I don't have much but what I do have is quality. For now on, that is what I'll be focusing on.
But... if you're ever in the mood (which you should be all the time) head over to The Sex Diet to see what raucous is ensuing!