Buck Up Buttercup...

And here it goes...  Ugh!

There will be more to come on this subject.  All I have to say at this point is this:  Doctors must be trained in some special way to give you bad knews without actually giving it to just so you can spend the next two weeks waiting for the next round of getting bad news without really getting it.  At what point am I going to be told just what the hell is happening. 

I don't feel anywhere near emotionally capable of being on this roller coaster.  I feel like tp'ing and egging my doctors house right now.