I've been complaining a lot recently about getting older. Specifically, about my body showing signs of age. Its harder to recover when there's an injury. Its harder to recover from drinking too much. Its hard to recover emotionally when things with your body decide to start shutting down. I've realized something over the last couple days... I'm fully aware that as you age your body wants to take it easy, but your brain doesn't. Your brain still thinks your body should function as it always has. As a woman, my brain thinks my body should be doing things that may now be in jeopardy. This has been a hard task for me to grasp.
This morning, I was reminded that I AM getting older. I woke up at 8 am to four 18-20 year old boys just getting ready to go to sleep. I joked about how nice it would be to be their age again. To be free from injuries, responsibility and anything else that would take away a persons zest for life.
I took Janis to work and on the way back I was talking myself into coming in the house and not doing any of the things that I planned on doing because I knew three of the boys were sleeping in the living room. I mean, it would be rude of me to come in and start cleaning. I got home, came into the room and shut the door. I sat on the bed for a while without thought but then something popped into my head, I don't need to be quiet for them. It isn't my fault they stayed up all night playing video games. I didn't run out of the room and start cleaning, even though I wanted to.
I've come to realize that I don't mind getting older. I don't mind physical pain, I have a heating pad for that. I love that I can look at these boys and laugh that I have a greater understanding of how life really works. I know these boys, they make me laugh. But they have a lot to learn. I know that I'm still learning but I have a great level of gratification for my experiences. Getting older isn't just about your body falling apart- Its about reaching a greater level of peace and understanding.
Like Stan would say.... I'm like fine wine....